Sometimes conversations confuse, sometimes they just help
unwind, sometimes a clearer perspective emerges, and sometimes you just want to
scream and tear your hair.
Holding the phone and discussing a tangled heart is so difficult
when the right thing to do is just run over and give a warm embrace. Absolutely
no need to have words to say something right? But long distance friendships
sometimes need mid night chats, long hours of texting, the ability to
comprehend in chaos and sometimes just the ability to shut up and listen.
Discussing matters of the heart, soothing the pain can be
quite difficult when you are actually not the one suffering and honestly even
the words “I Understand” are completely meaningless. Luckily for me and my
friend we thrash it out like it is our mess.
Knowing him and his bubbly heart for ages and seen him
struggle through highs and lows has been equally painful to me. But this time
the conversation was different. We figured why he would get into relationships
that seemed perfect and then somewhere lose the steam and not know where its
headed.
We cracked down the code finally to figure the difference
between like, love and the big word “commitment”.
Everybody has something likable. A pretty smile, fantastic
sense of humour, fashion sense, their scent, the list is endless. And men have
a whole other list. This is probably the start to being just an acquaintance, a
friend, something more or just end at a onetime conversation.
But what takes it to the level of wanting to spend more
time, have more chats, getting to the not so obvious side of the person. Do we, with our raging hormones allow this to
even happen or do we just jump into a conclusion that we are in love.
For those who decide they are in love too early, the real
picture can be pretty heart breaking. We begin to see beyond the nice
conversations and the fantastic person we first met and it may not be as
appealing. Now what? Do we breakup and move on? Do we hold on and stay
committed?
What is being committed? Mentally and emotionally loving
someone or something I guess. But can it be forced? No. So being in a
relationship that doesn’t make you happy or doesn't help you grow cannot qualify as a
commitment, it is dead weight.
Tricky words right. Let’s try simple - I could like an
occasional muffin, love indulging in everything sweet, or be committed to my
passion for baking. Or better, I could like socializing, love my best friend
and be committed to my dog as a companion over anything or anybody else because
that’s what makes me happy.
The benchmarks could be different for each one. Have learnt through emotional drama over the
years that the trick is to just savour relationships as they transition and
when you feel like holding on to something or someone against all odds you are
already committed. Let your heart take over and you will know.